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where oh where have i been?

running and working.. like crazy. mostly working given that the heat we are currently experiencing has prevented me to run. well its hasn't exactly prevented me from running. but im not running the amount of miles i want to and my speed is way off. which is killing me. driving me crazy more like it. i know i can get 7 miles in a hour and i am barely getting 6. i would never be caught dead saying this statement a few years ago. but i am seriously ready for autumn. really. nothing sounds better than a 70 degree weather day. ahhh just thinking about it makes me happy. well what do you expect when july comes around. 100 degree muggy hellish weather. but i cant complain too much because i do love the summer rain storms. oh how i miss the days where the gutters would flood and i would splash and kick around in the dirty water like i had nothing to worry about. yea i know it sounds gross dirty, gross, filthy water but im sure you did it when you were little. speaking of little. july not only brings hot weather, but it brings two other things. fireworks, which i 100% completely love and because of fireworks it makes my birthday that much better. but is also makes me one year older. wiser? i have no idea. but definitely older, which im not quite fond of. patients and even people work with think im 20..21 years old. then i tell them that i just turned 27 and they just cant believe it. they just look at me in disbelief, like they are waiting for me to say "just kidding, im really 19." but nope. though i will take the compliment because hopefully by the time im 50 ill look 40. crossing my fingers. i turned 27 on july 3rd and its even hard for me to wrap by brain around the fact that i am 3 years, well now less then 3 years away from turning 30. BLAH. i cant think about it. though its hard to not think about it because im currently on day 20 wearing a very annoying heart monitor. yep. im wearing another one. instead of a holter monitor that you only wear for 24 hours. im wearing a "event" monitor that you wear for 30 days. this could be a sign that i am getting old. ahhh. but this thing loves to beep at me. its pretty much like the other one i had to wear 2 months ago. it has three leads that are attached to a little box that i clip onto my pants or shorts, but i have a cell phone with this one that i have be near at least 100 yards/feet?? i cant remember. all i know is that it beeps at me when im just 12 inches away from it. like i said, i likes to beep and its annoying. i thought i was done wearing it this thursday, well i guess today until i looked to see how many days i have worn it and i still have one more week. ill have to say that is my bad news for the week. im really ready to take it off. especially since having it on, i have only had mild episodes while running. i guess you can say this is another reason why im not running as much because im a little scared i might drop down dead. scary? here's the story of why i have it on.

the tuesday before i got my monitor placed. i went for what should have been an easy 4 mile run. its my favorite 4 mile route. right at the beginning i knew i was going to struggle. i walked a few times and towards the end on my run i felt my heart rate go extremely fast. i stopped and put my fingers to my jugular artery. my rate was faster than i could count (so in my mind i tried to associate my rate with something so when i got home i could really know how fast my heart rate was) with every breathe i took i could feel my rate slow down and by my third breathe i felt my heart go right back in to sinus (normal) rhythm. freaky huh. 

well besides wearing a heart monitor, running well trying to run, getting older and maybe wiser, watching fireworks and getting high on gun powder i have just been relaxing at the pool soaking in this lovely weather. reading my books and planning on what races to run this fall. not a too shabby summer. no vacations which alright with me. sitting by the pool and reading my book is a vacation for me.